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There's so much to blog about and so little time.
Let's start on Friday.
Well, Friday was a pretty shit day. Y'know the emotional I-don't-think-I-exist, no-one-cares, wtf-did-I-expect kind of day? It didn't start out like that. I was in a like ultra-gay(happy) mood like I was floating around the office, calling out and smiling to everyone. 1 thing didn't work out though. I forgot my phone. So that day I had a plan with Khai and Amirah and Zee to hang out , you know just a small-birthday-celebration kinda thing. I don't believe I was good at planning anything for myself so I tried to keep it simplistic. Guess that didn't worked out, either Rushed home to get my phone and then head out again, I was in an indestructible mood. Or I thought so. Anyway the rest of the day went like Cry>Drink>Crysomemore>Fell asleep>Woke up> Pretended I was okay when parents came back and none of whatever happened before this happened.
Saturday
Now, Now. Well, Khairul "needed to get out" of his house. At first I was like "Bitch, you blew me off yesterday" Then I was like you know what ,I already planned to do the errands, I could just do it with him. So we went out. I don't even remember what it was like but we spent the evening together and then we joined zee for cupcakes and coffee to catch up , code word for bitch. And we came up with a crazy bitchy plan which didn't go the way we wanted but that's for later.
Monday
The Maldives officials came in today , a group of 8, it was quite nerve-wrecking, because it was my very first foreign delegates - from the land of the big blue clear sea - Maldives! I'm writing this on the last day we meet them so it's rather emotional. You know how is it that you make new friends at a camp, people you've never seen in your life but you spent a lot of time with them in a packed amount of time / days but at the end you'll know deep down that you're gonna miss them but it's gonna be hard to keep in touch. Yeah, that feeling. Anyway, it was first day , it was quite dry cos we had briefing and also the tour (which I've seen only a million times). But I was really kinda expecting Monday, like, Nando's, man! But that didn't work out as well. Because Khai kinda told me beforehand about the whole plan, I thought she was kidding when mon said "I'm just gonna meet you for a while and go home". & she went off in the train and that's that. I honestly thought , even after she got on the train, that she was pulling this huge joke, like the one that did at ITAS about slapping. I thought she would do something lame like take a train back and yell "Surprise!!" at me. I had that thought all the way till Khai told me she was prolly pissed / upset about that bitchy text or "tired" as she says. Still, that image of them collaberating to make an ass out of me still lingers. It was until I was sitting opposite Khairul , eating my $7.60 Nasi Padang when it dawned on me that it wasn't going to happen. Not Nando's. Not any sort of surprise. BUT HEY THAT DAY DIDN'T GO THAT BAD. i got wonderstruck by / from Khairul and that was fucking awesome and I got this pair of heels from Mon which screams (well, not literally) CLUBBING! So.. I guess that was pretty cool. I am really happy with my gifts cos they're really unexpected. OH AND I HAVE TO TELL YOU ABOUT THIS GIRL WHO LOOKS LIKE RIHANNA THAT WHOLE P.S THINKS SO but it so creepy cos the resemblance is just not captured by photo. I actually said "Holy Shit, you really look like rihanna" while taking photo of her with lynn.
Tuesday - Met with loveliest friends I've ever made, including the ones who could make it and got presents and cake and love and food and sigar and spice and everything nice. ALL THE PHOTOS OF ANY FORM OF BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION IS ON FB! (sorry I really am running out of steam and really want to get in bed and snuggle with my bolster). Colleagues surprised me , even though I kinda suspected something right at the end before they burst open the door which was lock like mins ago. But it was a really sweet gesture, me being a new kid and all. My favourite part of the whole surprise were the girls running around and me going like "Where the hell is my department? What is that noise? Why are they running around WAH LAO EH"
ANY, ANY WAY, I would really like to tell you about my emotional wed where we bid goodbye to the officials and it was so sad and all that but 1) I don't think you'd be interested 2) I'm really sleepy and lazy so as you can tell this is a really abrupt end so I just wanna share what I've learn in my year as a 18-year-old. You screw up, you move along. Awkward moments, forget it. You're laugh about these terrible moments but the people right now, right there with you, the ones hugging you when you screw up, when you failed a module, the one that holds your hair as you puke, if you know they're good for you, which I hope you do know how to tell, you pray hard (and work hard) that they'll be there when you finally reach what you consider successful when you're say.. 28. LIVE IN THE MOMENT. TRY TO SAY YES TO MOST OF THE THINGS. NO UNWILLING SEX. NO DRUGS. NO STEALING. NO PEDO UNCLES. NO Major Crimes like murder and shit. Anything else, you know how to do it man ;)
So live your lives guys,
to be ultimately hipster YOLO
Say yes more often, I'm telling you it'll bring you places.
It's way past my bed time and I didn't spell check so , sorry if this is not suited for human reading.
"I wanted to be worthy of that kind of trust."
The Accidental Father
Greg Williams
I guess, this is it.
I'm probably at the prime of my life. And this day, this weekend, this is what have become of it.
I pray fucking hard that this is not a reflection of my life (in future).
I try and try, but I also need circumstances to work with me, at least , just that once. For me to make a breakthrough. & its fucking sad because you were exactly who I thought I could rely on for times like this. Because I would do it for you. I would do it for you a million times. I'm sorry I didn't make it obvious to you that this was important to me, I guess.
Well, screw me. and screw this weekend, and screw this month. I can't be bothered anymore.
I miss school. I miss friends. I miss LEARNING.
I miss the food.
1 month down. 4 more to go.
I can do this. I need to look for things to do. I need to utilise my time. I shouldn't give up.
GO GO GO GO GO
I don't know why my parents are so unhappy. Did they really thought they knew each other when they got married? Did not in the slightest bit expect this when they were..say 27?
What went wrong? Their lives.. which part of it did they not like? Why didn't they act on it, before it got too late?
But of course, despite the guys in my family's HULK SIZE ego, we all know that my mum is the pillar of the household. Even though my dad acts like he wears the pants.
I don't know how to make it better. To be nicer to her? Doesn't seem like it's working.. Her only replies to my concerns is "Better still tonight I sleep and I don't wake up tmr morning" she says it on an average on 15 times a mth. That's at least 3-4 a week. I don't know what to do, I don't how to help. How can I help her get out of this shithole. My dad will lose it she leaves us. She is losing it because she is NOT leaving us. Honestly, it so fucking obvious that my dad loves me but I just.. I can't stand him. Because he spoils everybody's mood and then try to be nice abt it ltr WHATS THE FUCKIN USE JUST SHUT YR TRAP DAD AND PEOPLE CAN ACTUALLY BE HAPPY THEY CAN BREATHE GODDAMIT. My mum can be really happy somedays and somehow by the end of the day, it's like... the magic fairy dust that surrounds slowly dissipates and her time for happiness is up because something will happen and she will become unhappy, suicidal even.
You frown because you don't get a grade point that is more than 3.0
You frown because on your part-time job you weren't given enough shifts timing to make "reasonable money"
You frown because you're not popular and you don't seem to have enough friends
What do you do if you have a loved one who seem to be suicidal and have no fear of death, not because they embraced it and see it positively but rather, they cannot wait. They think anywhere is better than here.What if you make up and what they wished for day after day became true on a sunny, beautiful morning? What do you do?
You frown?
I love my "The little Prince" book.
I think my brother bought it for me.
I loved it.
& I know love my lil cousin , Kayvis.
I somehow identify with her, and I really want to give her this book of mine.
I hope she likes it too.
I hope it makes her happy.
Seems to me she doesn't get much love. This book, it'll teach her to imagine, it'll teach her love.
6 Things to Consider before Studying Abroad
 JobsCentral – Fri, May 4, 2012 10:08 AM SGT
Looking for a change in environment while you take your education to the next level? Studying abroad might just be your answer. A culturally rich and rewarding experience awaits you, so long as the right mindset is adopted and the necessary work prepped beforehand.
Before you jump on the overseas education bandwagon, here are some things to consider:
1. Are you ready to leave?
The most common sentiment about being thousands of miles away from home would be loneliness and feeling homesick. Naturally, being alone in a foreign land for long stretches at a time can make one’s thoughts linger in what one knows best – home.
Before you make your proverbial voyage across the world, make sure you’re mentally prepared and ready to go. Tie up all loose ends, say your goodbyes, and make plans for keeping in touch. Don’t get too beaten up by feelings of displacement that are initially overwhelming; those can simply be a predecessor to an exciting new world you have yet to explore. Indeed, a vast world makes little excuse to stay in a familiar place for the most of your life.
2. Don’t be fooled by poetic romanticisms
Especially if you’ve never once or rarely ever travelled, it is unwise to impetuously drop everything and go. If your foreign land of choice has been inspired simply by novels or movies, then reader, beware. Do plenty of research and certainly do not expect Mr Darcy or Mary Poppins to be singin’ in the rain.
Check out relevant websites for useful information on accommodation, living expenses and cultural expectations. Read travellers’ blogs or quiz acquaintances and friends on their experiences in that country and their advices to share. Better still, take a prolonged trip to the country and experience life there for a couple of weeks. As the common saying goes: the best lessons are learnt outside the classroom!
3. Can you really afford to go?
Studying overseas is like buying a house: it’s a huge investment. Many Singaporean parents tend to fall into the trap of selling their apartments to pay for hefty university fees, and that’s not all. Cost of living varies amongst cities, and considering the volatile economy, one should think twice before moving abroad and simultaneously wiping out your parents’ entire life savings, especially without the support of a scholarship. In the case where you responsibly decide to take up a personal bank loan, be warned of the vicious cycle many fresh graduates fall into: with exorbitant interest rates, study loans can sometimes take up to a lifetime to pay back.
4. Be street smart
Fresh-faced tourists and immigrants are favourite targets of petty crimes and con artists alike, so make sure you don’t come across as ignorant or weak. In any case where the latter is unavoidable then be sure to seek safety in numbers, and avoid secluded or shady areas. Never leave your belongings unattended even if it is for two seconds. In crowded places, watch out for people who stand too close or keep “bumping” into you. They might just be trying to nick that wallet sticking out of your trenchcoat pocket.
5. Be cautious but not anti-social
Since you’re likely to be all alone when you first move overseas, be duly cautious of every person you meet but refrain from exaggerated, anti-social behaviour. While you can never be too sure of someone else’s intentions, the lone sheep is always an easy victim for the savage wolf, so the key is to make new friends! Go out and meet new people at social events, be friendly and genuinely keen to connect with them, and you’ll soon have your own circle of close friends to rely on.
6. Get familiar with the culture! Do not be an alien spawn.
The greatest social faux pas would be a total seclusion of oneself. While the initial “culture shock” can take some getting used to, there’s no reason why you shouldn’t go out and experience life overseas to the fullest. So go pick up a new language, familiarise yourself with the colloquial slang and hang out with the locals. Before long, you’ll find yourself feeling right at home in your new surroundings.
I have a certain kind of attachment to you.
Because, once, just once, you said something I'd never forget.
You probably don't even realize you said it, or you would have forgotten by now.
But it's something I secretly yearn for the people I love to tell me, maybe, once in a while.
They do, actually, to be fair.
But mostly because I seem like a pathetic excuse for a insecure girl.
But what you said was so.. heartfelt, genuine, all in a passing remark.
No one special. Just someone who said the right thing at the time.
Someone, who made an impact.
Everyone's blogs are just about love , love , love.
& I'm here just like ...
i don't know, man. Sup, guys. I'm a goat & I'm fabulous
We could just go home right nowOr maybe we could stick aroundFor just one more drink,
Here's to usHere's to loveAll the timesThat we messed upHere's to you
Cause the last few daysHave gone too fastSo let give em hellWish everybody wellHere's to usHere's to us
We've stuck it out this far together. Here's to us. Here's to love.
Elicia Tan Elicia Lim Yanling Kandy Jia En Jia Lin Woonling Lay Tin Humaira <3
" a steady procession of people stopped by to greet Nick, to pay their respects. Being around him made me feel marginalization, like a movie extra: in the frame, but only just. "
- The Accidental Father, Greg Williams
asdfghjk can I just die now. PLS PLS PLS end up tgt you guys
- Graduated high school.
- Kissed someone.
- Smoked a cigarette.
- Gotten so drunk you passed out.
- Rode every ride at an amusement park.
- Gone to a rock concert.
- Helped someone.
- Gone fishing.
- Watched four movies in one night.
- Gone long periods of time without sleep.
- Snorted cocaine.
- Failed a class.
- Dealt drugs.
- Been in a car accident.
- Been in a tornado.
- Done hard drugs (i.e. ecstasy, heroin, crack, meth, acid).
- Watched someone die.
- Been to a funeral.
- Burned yourself.
- Ran a marathon.
- Cried yourself to sleep.
- Spent $200 in one day.
- Flown on a plane.
- Cheated on someone.
- Been cheated on.
- Written a 10 page letter.
- Gone skiing.
- Been sailing.
- Had a best friend.
- Lost someone you loved.
- Shoplifted something.
- Been to jail.
- Dangerously close to being in jail.
- Skipped school.
- Had detention.
- Got in trouble for something you didn’t do.
- Gone to a different country.
- Dropped out of school.
- Been in a mental hospital.
- Watched all of the “Harry Potter” movies.
- Had a yard sale.
- Had a lemonade stand.
- Actually made money at the lemonade stand.
- Voted for someone on a reality TV show.
- Written poetry.
- Read more than 20 books a year.
- Gone to Europe.
- Loved someone you shouldn’t have.
- Used a coloring book over age 12.
- Had surgery.
- Had stitches.
- Taken a taxi.
- Seen the Washington Monument.
- Had more than 5 IM’s/online conversations going at once.
- Overdosed.
- Had a drug or alcohol problem.
- Been in a fist fight.
- Suffered any form of abuse.
- Gone surfing in California.
- Had a pet hamster.
- Pet a wild animal.
- Used a credit card.
- Dyed your hair.
- Got a tattoo.
- Had something pierced.
- Got straight A’s.
- Been on the Honor Roll.
- Known someone with HIV or AIDS.
- Snuck out of the house.
- Swore at a teacher.
- Gone laser tagging.
- French braided.
- Skinny-dipped
- Driven a car.
- Been in love.
- Had a blonde moment.
- Been on a train.
- Seen a ghost.
- Gone bungee-jumping.
- Been to Mexico.
- Crashed a car.
- Sky dived.
- Been kissed in the rain.
- Made an 11:11 wish.
- Drank alcohol.
- Had sex
There's something about Chris Daughtry
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